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Sunday, April 13, 2008
friends ! (11 April 2008)
♥ 11 April 2008
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Yesterday, early in the morning i was suppose to reach school at 9pm. but then, i woke up late! argh!! im so upset with myself. if im late for work its okay. but this is school and some more a sc thing. hais... its okay. i will constantly remind myself that I WONT BE LATE AGAIN!!!! well.. i heard alot and i mean alot of story from zul abt bridget and doulet. and guess what. they have BROKEN UP on 7 April 2008!! they are such lovely couple and it is very surprising that they broken up. and doulet asked for it. stupid him. hmm... bascially, what i do at school is just helping out the exco members to clean up the student hub. as next week mon is the start of school. it was very tiring and i thought that it would end like 1pm or 2pm but it havent even finished yet at 4pm. then, i decided to cabot coz im seeing my friends at cck!!! hehe.
Finally! i reached lot1 and straight went to food culture to see atiqah, intan, nas, nisa, raudha, murni and khair. but eventually intan havent even reach yet. hehe. all of them except for intan just came back from cip. i had vegetarian spaghetti. it was delicious. after that, murni, raudha and khair went to old chang kee and went back home. as for the rest of us, we take some crazy pictures. haha. will upload that later. after that, nas went home cz she have to go madrasah. as for me, atiqah, intan n nisa we stay for a while at lot1. at last i bought the clothes that ive been eyeing on at the OP shop. yeah!!! the original price is $23 but i bought it with a 31% discount. so total was $15.95. worth it right? and i even receive a free gift of a pencil case that cost $16. im considered lucky you know. haha. after that, we went to one of the block and lepak there. it was crazy! we also take alot of crazy photos! we went back home at 9pm. im so, so, so happy that i spend time with my girlfriends today!
At night, i called my baby. i really miss him very much. i just want to tell him my story that i have spent for the day. but it seems impossible cz he have alot of problems that is more serious than my day. i really pity him but i just cant do anything. i want to help but i just dont know how to help him. i really, really feel very gulity. cz it concerned me too. hais. i cried talking on the phone with him yesterday. i just cant help it. but seeing him handling his problems, make me realise that im not the only one with problems. his problems is much more bigger and he react to it in a strong way. not like me. i will handle every problem very emotionally and i will cry. it has been days that i havent meet him. and when we msg, we only msg for awhile. even when talking on the phone. no words can describe how i feel towards him right now. sometimes i feel that it is better that the both of us ..... that is the reason why i post the say goodbye lyrics. i need to talk to him abt this asap. mind you! what i meant is not breaking up. but its just that when i open school next week, there is a chance that i will be very busy. so what i meant is that we should not contact each other until our holidays. for me, it is the best for the both of us. as he have enough problems. i just dont want to increase his problems. eventhough it will be REALLY damn hard for me not to contact him for like what? 3 bloody months???? but i have to willing to sacrifice this 3 months so that it will be easier for us to concentrate on our studies. but no matter what, i wont be unfaithful to him because i love him......
Finally! i reached lot1 and straight went to food culture to see atiqah, intan, nas, nisa, raudha, murni and khair. but eventually intan havent even reach yet. hehe. all of them except for intan just came back from cip. i had vegetarian spaghetti. it was delicious. after that, murni, raudha and khair went to old chang kee and went back home. as for the rest of us, we take some crazy pictures. haha. will upload that later. after that, nas went home cz she have to go madrasah. as for me, atiqah, intan n nisa we stay for a while at lot1. at last i bought the clothes that ive been eyeing on at the OP shop. yeah!!! the original price is $23 but i bought it with a 31% discount. so total was $15.95. worth it right? and i even receive a free gift of a pencil case that cost $16. im considered lucky you know. haha. after that, we went to one of the block and lepak there. it was crazy! we also take alot of crazy photos! we went back home at 9pm. im so, so, so happy that i spend time with my girlfriends today!
At night, i called my baby. i really miss him very much. i just want to tell him my story that i have spent for the day. but it seems impossible cz he have alot of problems that is more serious than my day. i really pity him but i just cant do anything. i want to help but i just dont know how to help him. i really, really feel very gulity. cz it concerned me too. hais. i cried talking on the phone with him yesterday. i just cant help it. but seeing him handling his problems, make me realise that im not the only one with problems. his problems is much more bigger and he react to it in a strong way. not like me. i will handle every problem very emotionally and i will cry. it has been days that i havent meet him. and when we msg, we only msg for awhile. even when talking on the phone. no words can describe how i feel towards him right now. sometimes i feel that it is better that the both of us ..... that is the reason why i post the say goodbye lyrics. i need to talk to him abt this asap. mind you! what i meant is not breaking up. but its just that when i open school next week, there is a chance that i will be very busy. so what i meant is that we should not contact each other until our holidays. for me, it is the best for the both of us. as he have enough problems. i just dont want to increase his problems. eventhough it will be REALLY damn hard for me not to contact him for like what? 3 bloody months???? but i have to willing to sacrifice this 3 months so that it will be easier for us to concentrate on our studies. but no matter what, i wont be unfaithful to him because i love him......
♥ Say Goodbye - Chris Brown
Say Goodbye - Chris Brown
(Sigh) Look...we gotta talk
Dang, I know I know
But it's, it's just some things I gotta get off chest, alright?
Yeah. Woo, ooo, woo, ooo, woo, ooo
Listen
(Verse 1:)
Baby come here an' sit down let's talk I got alot to say so I guess i'll start by sayin that i luv you but you know this thing ain't been a walk in the park (for us) I swear it'll only take a minute you'll understand when i finish yeah and i don't want 2 see u cry but i don't want 2 be the one 2 tell u a lie so...
[HOOK]
How do you let go? when you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it and
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
Cause I know!!
[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's kind of killing me
'Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
(Verse 2:)
Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we'd grow apart
And I wanna know...
[HOOK]
How do you let go? when you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see that i'm hurt?
[CHORUS]
(Verse 3:)
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh [2x]
Do you hear me crying?
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
[CHORUS]
(Sigh) Look...we gotta talk
Dang, I know I know
But it's, it's just some things I gotta get off chest, alright?
Yeah. Woo, ooo, woo, ooo, woo, ooo
Listen
(Verse 1:)
Baby come here an' sit down let's talk I got alot to say so I guess i'll start by sayin that i luv you but you know this thing ain't been a walk in the park (for us) I swear it'll only take a minute you'll understand when i finish yeah and i don't want 2 see u cry but i don't want 2 be the one 2 tell u a lie so...
[HOOK]
How do you let go? when you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it and
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
Cause I know!!
[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's kind of killing me
'Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
(Verse 2:)
Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we'd grow apart
And I wanna know...
[HOOK]
How do you let go? when you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see that i'm hurt?
[CHORUS]
(Verse 3:)
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh [2x]
Do you hear me crying?
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
[CHORUS]
♥ My Life.
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
hello. before this, i have alot alot to say. but as i got in, my mind went blank. and im stoning infront of the computer. hais.... basically, my life is not prefect but okay. i have my family, some of my friends and my boyfriend. ppl may say my life is prefect cz i have everything. but to me, eventhough i have everything that some may not have, there is some emptyness inside of me and i still cant figure it out.
am i stressed out? or depressed? cz the book that i read said i maybe stress or depressed? but to think back, for what i want to be stress and depressed for??? but lately, ive been thinking alot. i tend to think alot of things at a time. and that makes me ....... i dont know what is happening to me. i had started to hurt myself. i will cry just because of a small matter. and now im talking crap. i dont even know what am i writing. argh!!!!! too much!!! too much!!!! i cant take it anymore!!!!! even now i feel like crying. for no reason. hey! am i crazy? am i toooooo emotional? i dont know. i just cant think straight anymore. even if i want to talk to somebody about this, i dont who i want/can talk to. this is my problem. i just can express my feelings. when i want to express it, i tend to change the topic or i just cant put it into a sentence and i expect the other person to understand how i feel. im physically and mentally tired. sometimes, i feel like giving up life. give up everything i have. too many sin i have done. and i just dont know when i will replenish those sins. those horrible and terrible sins.
since the day, 060508, that i meet him near his place, i have make myself clear that i will think positive and do not think like last time. i hate how i am last time. okay........... now im blank....... really really blank... cant think of anything to write. just wanna go and sleep. i have to work tomorrow and i so not want to be late. so, good night! will update tomorrow again.
i love my hafiz ! sooo much!
am i stressed out? or depressed? cz the book that i read said i maybe stress or depressed? but to think back, for what i want to be stress and depressed for??? but lately, ive been thinking alot. i tend to think alot of things at a time. and that makes me ....... i dont know what is happening to me. i had started to hurt myself. i will cry just because of a small matter. and now im talking crap. i dont even know what am i writing. argh!!!!! too much!!! too much!!!! i cant take it anymore!!!!! even now i feel like crying. for no reason. hey! am i crazy? am i toooooo emotional? i dont know. i just cant think straight anymore. even if i want to talk to somebody about this, i dont who i want/can talk to. this is my problem. i just can express my feelings. when i want to express it, i tend to change the topic or i just cant put it into a sentence and i expect the other person to understand how i feel. im physically and mentally tired. sometimes, i feel like giving up life. give up everything i have. too many sin i have done. and i just dont know when i will replenish those sins. those horrible and terrible sins.
since the day, 060508, that i meet him near his place, i have make myself clear that i will think positive and do not think like last time. i hate how i am last time. okay........... now im blank....... really really blank... cant think of anything to write. just wanna go and sleep. i have to work tomorrow and i so not want to be late. so, good night! will update tomorrow again.
i love my hafiz ! sooo much!
Labels: i am crazy.....
♥ HAPPY 4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!
Saturday, April 5, 2008
HAPPY 4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!
Finally this day have come! yeah! haha. wow.. 4 month already that we officially been together. for this month, didnt celebrate our anniversary as he is tired and sleepy. im okay with it cz i understand that he need his rest. nothing much to write cz my mind suddenly went blank...... argh! i have alot of things to write. hmmm... i just miss my hafiz. :( i want to spend time with him and it seems like impossible nowadays. he will be starting school this coming monday. and for sure he will be busy and tired. so baby, please take care of yourself and take care of your health. i love you...........
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♥ Pictures at MadJack Cafe.
Pictures Taken !
Candid of me.
Posing! hehe.
Chocolate Banana Cake!
The Birthday Makciks. Hahaha.
Ambassador Of MadJack Cafe
My delicious Fish & Chips .
My Strawberry & Banana Smoothie .
Candid!
♥ Happy Birthday!
Yesterday went to madjack cafe. I ordered Fish&Chips and a Strawberry & Banana smoothie. hehe. the food there was delicious. but i still prefer abg amy's lamb. haha. i was quite full after eating and sharing all the food. haha. after finished eating, we cut the cake. the cake was bought from secret recipe. i love the cake. my favourite! haha. CHOCOLATE BANANA!! yummy. hehe. the total bill was about $200++. and it was paid by kak tik. but it was worth it. after all the eating, they decided to go to mustafa center!! woohoo! hahaah. but the sad thing is cik pai n family with mak itam n family is nt gg. so sad. but nvm. mak busu n family is following with abg amy too!! i was looking for a black shoe but couldnt find one that is SUITABLE and also pretty. but it ok. i can find the black shoe for school other place. the 2nd thing that i actually wanted to buy is a handphone!! argh.... im soo desprate for a new phone. i want to ask papa but i know he wont buy for me as mama already bought for me last year. and fit confirm will bising cz he also wants a handphone. but its okay. i can live with this phone that im using currently. well, i didnt buy anything there. at 11+pm, he msged me. after one whole day i didnt contact him. hais.... i dont know what is wrong with me. a few minutes to midnight will be our 4th month anniversary together and he already make me really, really sad. i thought that it was over. but i was just over reacting like i always do. forget about it. well, after a long walk inside mustafa center, we went to the nearest coffeeshop and rest. we also ordered some drinks. after that, home sweet home. at last! ouh no.... tomorrow im working.... tired. when we reached home, i just realised that i actually bought two NIKE socks! one is orange in colour and the other is green n blue in colour. haha. my lucky day. heehe.
that time, i was feeling very, very down. and i thought of keeping every thing to myself as i dont want anybody to know what im feeling but i just cant hold on any longer and tried to talk to atiqah. and after telling her, i was very, very upset and regret of telling her. she said that i am very emotional. ok. i admit. i am emotional. but dont she ever thought that last time when she is with ichan she is also emotional???? argh! i just want her to console me not the otherwise. from that day onwards, ive realised that she just cant help me in any of my problems. even if she is my twin sister but she is not acting like one. hais.. im so sad. she is the only person in my family that i can tell my problems and share my secrets to. other than her, there is noone else. even now i cant find a friend that i can trust. not even one!
that time, i was feeling very, very down. and i thought of keeping every thing to myself as i dont want anybody to know what im feeling but i just cant hold on any longer and tried to talk to atiqah. and after telling her, i was very, very upset and regret of telling her. she said that i am very emotional. ok. i admit. i am emotional. but dont she ever thought that last time when she is with ichan she is also emotional???? argh! i just want her to console me not the otherwise. from that day onwards, ive realised that she just cant help me in any of my problems. even if she is my twin sister but she is not acting like one. hais.. im so sad. she is the only person in my family that i can tell my problems and share my secrets to. other than her, there is noone else. even now i cant find a friend that i can trust. not even one!
Labels: super fun.
♥ Happy Birthday!
Friday, April 4, 2008
Happy Birthday Cik Pai!!
♥ bored at home...
im sooo bored at home.... nothing to do. just surf the net. hais.... even the more i surf the net the more i find it is boring. its like i will always go to the same website for example is friendster. to me, friendster is getting boring day by day... same old s**t. im glad that ltr we are gg out and eat at madjack cafe! yeah! we will be celebrating cik pai and mak itam's birthday. mak itam birthday was like 2 days ago and cik pai birthday is TODAY! haha. i cnt wait for later. hehe. because we will be EATING and its like my whole family will be there. basically, its not the whole family but mojirity will be there! and im sooo excited! hehe. btw, madjack cafe food is very cheap cheap. very affordable for ppl like me. heehe. but i still dont know whether it is nice or not. so im gonna judge for myself later!!
i still havent contact with my baby, HAFIZ. hais... he is busy with his orientation thingy. and im stuck at home. suddenly, i miss him. eventhough yesterday we met but then i still miss him. well this few days, i see a little change in him. what change? well i dont even know myself. i think im just over reacting you know. but my jealousy is becoming worse!! arghh!!! i hate that. i trust him but its just that whenever he msg wif sarah, i cant help but to feel jealous even if they are just FRIENDS and he have no feelings for her. but the thing is sarah still have FEELINGS for him and wants him back. im afraid that one fine day, he will go back to her. but i know deep down inside he wont. im just OVER REACTING again!! hais.... i really want him to know how i really, really feel but i just cant. im afriad that he will get the wrong idea and we will get in a big fight. i dont want that to happen. seriously. its not worth it fighting over such a topic. tomorrow will be our 4th month anniversary. i dont even know if i can met him or not. but even if we meet up we will not be celebrating our anni. its the same like last mnth. i dont know why but we dont celebrate our anni. haha. but i will make his birthday a special day for him. thats for sure!!! :)
i still havent contact with my baby, HAFIZ. hais... he is busy with his orientation thingy. and im stuck at home. suddenly, i miss him. eventhough yesterday we met but then i still miss him. well this few days, i see a little change in him. what change? well i dont even know myself. i think im just over reacting you know. but my jealousy is becoming worse!! arghh!!! i hate that. i trust him but its just that whenever he msg wif sarah, i cant help but to feel jealous even if they are just FRIENDS and he have no feelings for her. but the thing is sarah still have FEELINGS for him and wants him back. im afraid that one fine day, he will go back to her. but i know deep down inside he wont. im just OVER REACTING again!! hais.... i really want him to know how i really, really feel but i just cant. im afriad that he will get the wrong idea and we will get in a big fight. i dont want that to happen. seriously. its not worth it fighting over such a topic. tomorrow will be our 4th month anniversary. i dont even know if i can met him or not. but even if we meet up we will not be celebrating our anni. its the same like last mnth. i dont know why but we dont celebrate our anni. haha. but i will make his birthday a special day for him. thats for sure!!! :)
Labels: boring....
♥ confused but happy!!
heyhey! finally, ive made a blog! yeah! haha. well, i decided to have a blog cz it seems cool and most of my friends have it and most of all is that it is the place where i can share my feelings and i can write anything i want! haha. isnt it cool?? my first time blogging was very confusing. i was in the verge to give up cz it suxs. but luckily i didnt! and i managed to change my template and update my blog! woohoo!
update again later! BYE!
i miss hafiz.
update again later! BYE!
i miss hafiz.
Labels: i miss hafiz .
