♥xoxo.

Yesterday, early in the morning i was suppose to reach school at 9pm. but then, i woke up late! argh!! im so upset with myself. if im late for work its okay. but this is school and some more a sc thing. hais... its okay. i will constantly remind myself that I WONT BE LATE AGAIN!!!! well.. i heard alot and i mean alot of story from zul abt bridget and doulet. and guess what. they have BROKEN UP on 7 April 2008!! they are such lovely couple and it is very surprising that they broken up. and doulet asked for it. stupid him. hmm... bascially, what i do at school is just helping out the exco members to clean up the student hub. as next week mon is the start of school. it was very tiring and i thought that it would end like 1pm or 2pm but it havent even finished yet at 4pm. then, i decided to cabot coz im seeing my friends at cck!!! hehe.

Finally! i reached lot1 and straight went to food culture to see atiqah, intan, nas, nisa, raudha, murni and khair. but eventually intan havent even reach yet. hehe. all of them except for intan just came back from cip. i had vegetarian spaghetti. it was delicious. after that, murni, raudha and khair went to old chang kee and went back home. as for the rest of us, we take some crazy pictures. haha. will upload that later. after that, nas went home cz she have to go madrasah. as for me, atiqah, intan n nisa we stay for a while at lot1. at last i bought the clothes that ive been eyeing on at the OP shop. yeah!!! the original price is $23 but i bought it with a 31% discount. so total was $15.95. worth it right? and i even receive a free gift of a pencil case that cost $16. im considered lucky you know. haha. after that, we went to one of the block and lepak there. it was crazy! we also take alot of crazy photos! we went back home at 9pm. im so, so, so happy that i spend time with my girlfriends today!

At night, i called my baby. i really miss him very much. i just want to tell him my story that i have spent for the day. but it seems impossible cz he have alot of problems that is more serious than my day. i really pity him but i just cant do anything. i want to help but i just dont know how to help him. i really, really feel very gulity. cz it concerned me too. hais. i cried talking on the phone with him yesterday. i just cant help it. but seeing him handling his problems, make me realise that im not the only one with problems. his problems is much more bigger and he react to it in a strong way. not like me. i will handle every problem very emotionally and i will cry. it has been days that i havent meet him. and when we msg, we only msg for awhile. even when talking on the phone. no words can describe how i feel towards him right now. sometimes i feel that it is better that the both of us ..... that is the reason why i post the say goodbye lyrics. i need to talk to him abt this asap. mind you! what i meant is not breaking up. but its just that when i open school next week, there is a chance that i will be very busy. so what i meant is that we should not contact each other until our holidays. for me, it is the best for the both of us. as he have enough problems. i just dont want to increase his problems. eventhough it will be REALLY damn hard for me not to contact him for like what? 3 bloody months???? but i have to willing to sacrifice this 3 months so that it will be easier for us to concentrate on our studies. but no matter what, i wont be unfaithful to him because i love him......