i still havent contact with my baby, HAFIZ. hais... he is busy with his orientation thingy. and im stuck at home. suddenly, i miss him. eventhough yesterday we met but then i still miss him. well this few days, i see a little change in him. what change? well i dont even know myself. i think im just over reacting you know. but my jealousy is becoming worse!! arghh!!! i hate that. i trust him but its just that whenever he msg wif sarah, i cant help but to feel jealous even if they are just FRIENDS and he have no feelings for her. but the thing is sarah still have FEELINGS for him and wants him back. im afraid that one fine day, he will go back to her. but i know deep down inside he wont. im just OVER REACTING again!! hais.... i really want him to know how i really, really feel but i just cant. im afriad that he will get the wrong idea and we will get in a big fight. i dont want that to happen. seriously. its not worth it fighting over such a topic. tomorrow will be our 4th month anniversary. i dont even know if i can met him or not. but even if we meet up we will not be celebrating our anni. its the same like last mnth. i dont know why but we dont celebrate our anni. haha. but i will make his birthday a special day for him. thats for sure!!! :)
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