am i stressed out? or depressed? cz the book that i read said i maybe stress or depressed? but to think back, for what i want to be stress and depressed for??? but lately, ive been thinking alot. i tend to think alot of things at a time. and that makes me ....... i dont know what is happening to me. i had started to hurt myself. i will cry just because of a small matter. and now im talking crap. i dont even know what am i writing. argh!!!!! too much!!! too much!!!! i cant take it anymore!!!!! even now i feel like crying. for no reason. hey! am i crazy? am i toooooo emotional? i dont know. i just cant think straight anymore. even if i want to talk to somebody about this, i dont who i want/can talk to. this is my problem. i just can express my feelings. when i want to express it, i tend to change the topic or i just cant put it into a sentence and i expect the other person to understand how i feel. im physically and mentally tired. sometimes, i feel like giving up life. give up everything i have. too many sin i have done. and i just dont know when i will replenish those sins. those horrible and terrible sins.
since the day, 060508, that i meet him near his place, i have make myself clear that i will think positive and do not think like last time. i hate how i am last time. okay........... now im blank....... really really blank... cant think of anything to write. just wanna go and sleep. i have to work tomorrow and i so not want to be late. so, good night! will update tomorrow again.
i love my hafiz ! sooo much!
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