Okay, this is just a short story of my love life that i want to share. Two guys involved here. So lets name them, A & B. *Don't read if you're not interested. Thank you.*
I knew A two years ago from work. We dated for a only a month or maybe less than a month then we were officially together. Yes i do admit that we were too fast and i don't even know him inside out. But i used to love A alot. And i used to think that he was the one for me and he was my everything. The thing is, i felt the same way too when im with B. This time, the feelings for B was much more stronger. I sacrificied alot for both of my realtionship. What i get in the end, is just regret, hurt and dissapointment. Both of them didnt appreciate of what i had done for them. And surprisingly, both dumped me with a stupid msg and before dumping me, both leave me hanging for a few days. Honestly, i wasnt that hurt when A asked for a break cause that point of time i was 'dating' B. So, A actually given me the oppurtunity to be with B. I felt relieved eventhough i still felt sad for A leaving me. Relieved cause i can finally be with B and not think about breaking A's heart. But i did break A heart though. As for B, i knew him 6 years ago. But i started to be really close with him 1 year ago. We only dated for 2 mths and he asked me to be his girl. And yes i do admit again that we were too fast and worse i just broke up with A not more than a month! Our relationship lasted for 8 months but i loved him as if i knew him for 8 years. We were strong for the first few months. Some even said that we were the prefect couple and they were jealous of us. Sadly, our forever love has become broken love.
As i think back, i realised the biggest mistake that ive done. I hate to admit this but i was too rushing for both of my relationships. No wonder it was an unsuccessful one! Haah! And, i shouldn't do so much for that someone or even give so much cause if it doesn't work out, im the one who gonna regret it as its all not worth it. Its different if you already know the guy long enough when you know him inside out and most importantly, you can already predict him. Also, i think maybe i deserve this. Well, this is my karma. What goes around, comes around.
For now, being single is the best option for me. After advising & listening to problems from friends, i don't think i am ready yet to be committed in a relationship. But if i happen to change my mind, i should take things slow. Haha! Well, being single is not as bad as you think it is. Yes you feel lonely and yes sometimes you need that extra attention and extra love from someone to make you feel loved or special. But i believe that you can have that too when you are single. Not only that, you get your freedom too! Weee~! Im trying hard to enjoy the single life now. But don't worry, ill get over it soon enough. What i can do now is, live life to the fullest and enjoy it will i can. :D
Finally, to B. Its hard to forget you. Its hard to move on. But i tried & still am trying to erase you from my mind, my life and also my past. Ill delete all the pictures of you in my mp4 and handphone when im really ready to let go of you totally. This is best for me so that i won't think of you anymore and i won't miss you that much. And also, i don't even want to know any updates from you cause it won't help me moving on. B, part of me still yearns to be with you, still misses you and still loving you. But it hurts to know that you don't care anymore and even worse, you don't have feelings for me at all. You've moved on. How i wish i can be more like you. :(
Anyway, i hope all the best in everything you do and if you found someone, stick with her and do take good care for her. Lastly, don't give alot of trouble to your mum. No matter what, ill be happy for you. Take care and Goodbye.
The End.
xoxo.
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